Starfish star

     
    With an idiotic child's head, I often think of my 30-year-old at the same time as a gallop of mocked and mocked Soot! Flirtatious smiles that set up traps of lies on all sizes sympathized with me, and when I needed to be ashamed of my pressure, I didn't find a spark of Truth on this insidious mud! Why would I pant even more hungry and longingly in this great world if I know there is no shelter for me now ?!
     
    The Hyena-Indifference of the World fits in a big bag and I will only consciously keep some important children out of myself! In my gut I feel more and more called to action scapegoats in the whispering silence! And I swallowed and put up with a millionth sigh of supplications: I could only be an alien Star wandering out of this earth, even now unaccompanied bitter! I feel it every day: A murderous herd of minutes is drumming mad in my ear and warning me: I'm stepping into a misty swamp when I sniff out career opportunities!
     
    I have known for a long time: all of a sudden, in the cauldron of devouring, black fires, my bones suddenly start to dust! As a hunched Shadow, I march among Humans for a lifetime of saturated lives; every flake falls from the pounding petals into the pile of my heart: every punch is still gaping, punching like an open-left gate-wound! Many people look at me and stare at me like a cowardly Disobedient Traitor who gave up on himself, because he couldn't believe anything anymore!
     
    In vain did I try to peel off my cipher skin, and the footprint of my old grievances broke out on it! Torturing himself, struggling with himself, the Child lives in me who needs protection and a hug; if you can't redeem Someone who can stand by me My wounded soul will abort you defenselessly again!