A PLACE OF REPENTANCE
With myself I can only be part, trying to find the particles of the whole,
scattered around me at fateful moments! Humiliation of souls,
I began to laugh, and the nursery flowed like a finished memory.
But it was school that taught me most of all: To survive with fear, to survive
Constant alertness, against the snarling claws of industrious beasts.
And I can't even say that I'm the only one who's ever been broken.
Has any but me mourned the state, the cross-suffering, of the Son of Mercy? Doubt-
I have shivered with crocodile's droppings through those days, if I enter the halls of my dreams.
...of my dreams: I must have been a child again, who once loved Turkish honey, gu-
and toffee, and fudge - deep down, it's just bone-crunching humiliation
Outside my spat cheek my shoe-soled front kicks the ancient front of vengeance
of ancient satisfaction. And more doubtful, more hopeless is the unknown; the sequel!
My morality is an unsalable relic! I have been lucky, and just in wrong sufferings:
Lives have been pinched by Nemesis' fate: lost compliments, romantic
sickness, sickness, bone-pain, all the carrion of conscience survives.
I've said it all: a decision, a decision, a decision, a decision, a decision, a decision, a decision, a decision.
A kiss-esky decision brought me to the ground, But quite, - in that fateful moment!
I should have taken revenge! - I was just dipped in an iron fist,
In the flushing catacombs of the toilet, And a goodly fatherly slap, too! - The
The result was substantial, a ghost-recognition crawling in rooms. Here I am, and yet
with myself I can only be part!