Hurts

It hurts and I don’t know why

My bones feel brittle and my eyes sting

My back feels like breaking

And my shallow breathes keep breathing

I’m breaking and I don’t know why

I don’t know why I’m sad

Or why I’m lonely

I have a family

They support me as much as they can

But all I notice are what they lack

And in what they lack I get mad

At what they lack I hold a grudge

I don’t wanna be like this

Holding loathing like a treasure

Keeping it in my heart,

holding it forever

I don’t want to wake up to tears

Or dread of the day ahead

I don’t want to stay in bed

But I feel paralyzed, like I’m dead