Melancholy

I really can't explain how I'm feeling.
Or rather the fact that I'm not feeling.
I'm in a place where nothing I do is fulfilling,
And everything just sounds so unappealing

I feel like I'm lost in the abyss of nothingness
Falling and sinking deeper into a state of numbness
I feel like I'm being sucked into a vacuum of blackness.
Surrounded by despair, enveloped in sadness. 

Self examination tells me I'm okay.
I can't find any reason why I should feel this way.
Coz one moment I was as bright as the day,
And the next, the sun just seemed so faraway.

I'm freaked out, scared, terrified.
Or I would be, but I feel only sadness inside.
Coz in this state, its so easy to dream of suicide. 
Deep down where depression resides.

TheJedi.