I Just Wanted To Be Okay

I just want to be okay

I just want to be at peace

I’m so tired of pretending

Pretending that everything is fine

Im exhausted of hiding how I truly feel

I am never okay

I am never enough 

I'm always battling inside myself

The demons

The voices

Everyone and everything is pulling me down

When can I just let go 

When can I be free of all this hatred

It’s like it never wants to leave

I feel like I’m always going to be in pain

Then I ask why

What did I do to deserve this

I thought I was a good person

But this pain

This hurt I feel

It’s never ending