LIFE

Looking back trying to rekindle my childhood, my memories seem to be scattered,  Maybe God has erased most of them and left only the ones that mattered.

Trying to sort through the ones that still remain

finding myself saddened and my heart filled with so much pain. 
As a little girl growing up I felt so alone

The lifestyle that surrounded me, I wish I would have never known

i longed for the one thing that every child needs and should never have to go without,

The love and nurturing from a mother I knew nothing about 

The absence of her emotions haunt me every day

Although I'm grown now with children of my own I still long to feel her acceptance , love and for The Lord to touch her every time I Pray

She will never know or even care how much she has hurt me deep inside

She will never feel the emptiness for the life I've been deprived. 
is it that I became so obsessed for her approval and needed her attention

That now I myself have neglected the needs of my own children, I dare not admit or venture to mention

Now the Prayers I speak to My Father in Heaven or not for myself but children of my own 

I Pray for the ability to give them all the love and attention that I was never shown