Mudded atoms a Souls Journey

I'm but a weary soul trapped inside of a muddled shell
The only way to break the spell is to die well?
Most want to heaven but dont want to die scared to fry 
Even though it faces them everyday from the sky 
To the souls of their eyes meanwhile they hope for sighs 
Trying to save a doomed race but it's been misplaced  
Fortune and fame just to brand your name and it's a shame 
That we still dont know how to cherish each other 
I see the beautiful celestial lite up like eternal christmas lights 
How can you not see the beauty wrapped in delight 
See the plight is through suffering shame and shuffling  
Series of the same events played until your body is decayed 
Then your prayed on by the living pray the pastors 
Eulogy they say give every excuse but to let you rest 
They wish you hadn't die so you can struggle like the rest 
I guess it's all a game I rather sit and stroke my pin til
The ink depletes and then my mind will write again 
A mental note for physical pain to tote how can I float 
Above the cloud 9 and alingmy soul against the sunshine 
Only peace I'll permanently have is when I'm resting 
Peacefully in my eternal bed where my body weds heads 
Comfortably on a pillow