Author: NELLIE
Poetry
Before I quit
Everyone just loves to see me hurt. I'm putting myself to work. Hope to stay busy, but I'm still lonely. Use to beg and plead. But the toxic relationship caused me to bleed. I'm a cheat, she's with someone else already under our old sheets. Now I drink, alone I think. I melted quick lime ice in my whiskey. But all of this till this day still haunts me. They say I'm not ugly. But I look in the mirror and man I'm disgusting. The pain behind my eyes. The arguments I've been having with myself. Dear doubts, whatever you say I'll doubt it. For now I'm a just take a break before I quit.
...Dear doubts
Dear doubts,
You need to stop speaking so loud!
I'm trying to figure my stuff out.
So aggressive! A bit obsessive!
Making my accomplishments fade.
I've now got A heartache.
The arguments I've caused, the amount of respect I've lost.
May I get some peace? Leave me be please!
My securities are infected, all by insecurities so I left it.
I've got plans yet, I'll doubt I'll regret it.
Doubts so cold I need to build A fire. Happiness lost I'm a make a flyer.
Always got the benefit of the doubt, the rant and I don't know what to talk about.
Impossible to gaze upon and reach for it, if I thought of it I've found myself doubting it.
So Dear doubts...is this your desire or skill?
P.S
When are you going to doubt me?
...Dear doubts
Dear doubts,
You need to stop speaking so loud!
I'm trying to figure my stuff out.
So aggressive! A bit obsessive!
Making my accomplishments fade.
I've now got A heartache.
The arguments I've caused, the amount of respect I've lost.
May I get some peace? Leave me be please!
My securities are infected, all by insecurities so I left it.
I've got plans yet, I'll doubt I'll regret it.
Doubts so cold I need to build A fire. Happiness lost I'm a make a flyer.
Always got the benefit of the doubt, the rant and I don't know what to talk about.
Impossible to gaze upon and reach for it, if I thought of it I've found myself doubting it.
So Dear doubts...is this your desire or skill?
P.S
When are you going to doubt me?
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