Heartbroken Autopilot
A normal day waking up
I fetch me a quick dose of a nation's situation
The television on as briefly as possible
Down my hallway, a shower, steeling myself
Applying my image to shield vulnerabilities
Briskly walking back through the hallway
Raising a middle finger to a blank tv screen
So much pain..
Coffee or an energy drink?
Maybe vodka but I need to be able to think
Reaching like a tired Monster for a Redbull
I still can't escape by flying away..
Counter drawers, withdrawing a dose..
An antidepressant placebo
This land's status always makes it both though
Anyways..
Light of the new day looms
I'd love to just witness compassion
Yeah.. Its.. A normal day..
With a heart screaming silently
With a mind trained to suppress
Appearing as my best..
This stress..
When will it end..?
Lately I'm on autopilot
The stress feels like I'm a mess at best
Knowing I'm not alone in this..
It brings a slight comfort and a wave of hurt..
Times are changing and..
Its.. Heartbreaking..