MY BATTLE WITH MENTAL HEALTH
http://thegraymonksscriptorium.blogspot.com/search?q=darryl+ashton&m=1The mind plays tricks on me
And all I want is to be se free.
There must be a cure out there
to grasp and embrace
Before I make the choice to
leave the human race.
One day I am okay and thinking
what to do
Embracing happiness but there
is always a big queue.
I think all the time as my head
is list in war
A war of being "normal" but that
does see afar.
There are lots of other people
who suffer just like I do
And no one can see their suffering
it's hidden - that is very true.
You always are dreading each and
every day
You hate life so much it only brings
you dismay.
The cloud gathers round as it grips
your soul real tight.
But you've just had enough of it
and you don't want to fight.
You are fed up of the so-called
"professionals" always preaching -
they always know best
Even before the meeting you have
failed the test.
The test to see if you are sane - some
are patronising
"We're not going to "judge" you - but
our "ability" to "listen" is really so
amazing!"
You are just a number on a list of
boring paper filed away
When there is a "vacancy" we'll ring
you, maybe today!
But your fight goes on against an
evil so invisible
And all you can really do is pop
another pill!
Is this a life I truly want? There has
to be an answer
Do these so-called "professionals"
just treat me as another chancer?
The system is at breaking point
and they cannot help everyone.
Some will 'fall through the net' - it
is true I know someone.
The world around you has no
meaning - as you lose the will to
live.
But before you do depart you find
the will to forgive.
Mental health is invisible I know
that is very true.
It is also a coward and it doesn't
just attack a few.
So where the gell do I go? You can't
run away from the Devil?
Mental illness is always there - it
really is so evil.
If some nice person can find a cure
one day - even if I pray,
You will become very rich because
you can end all dismay.
Until that time does get here - I'll try to
carry on as I am able to.
But it really is so very difficult - and
that is very true.
BY
DARRYL ASHTON