The New Girl
Your name written in red, Blood on my sweater,
Your blade in my spine, Hope she treats you better.
Why couldn't you have me back?
Was our love the rose or the lilac?
Was I just a cheaper prozac?
Your very own nymphomaniac?
I'm bleeding Blue, cuz it's all inside
The cage in my heart, unidentified,
My plan for the escape, suicide,
How is my own death, undignified?
Why does she now mean more?
Why is your love, a carnivore?
Is this new or has it happened before,
Guess I just don't matter, anymore.
...Tomorrow
Life is stupid and life is beautiful
Death, well it's still not excludable
Yesterday might have been great
That might have been just the bait
For today, the tables can flip over
But is that certain? Certainly no sir!
Today might have been lower that most
But tomorrow you might become a ghost
No one knows what tomorrow holds
You just have to wait for what unfolds
Tomorrow can't be bought at high prices
It's just part of the ongoing existential crisis.
So wipe off your teary grins and start the show
Cue the music, cue the dancers and cue tomorrow.
...Just Another
Seems just yesterday when it began
Guess you discovered a better plan
Guess we've crossed our lifespan
Guess you found your perfect man.
I dream that you feel this pain too
I wish we could talk how we used to
Every day, I ask the walls for a clue
Of how it feels like to be loved by you.
After wiping your tears, without a tissue,
I wish I got more than just a 'thank you'.
I could talk to you all night, friendly
Be the most understanding and funny
But to you, I was just another nobody
Someone will come and replace me
Maybe that's just how it's meant to be
Maybe me and you, were never "we".
I wish I knew what wrong i did
Guess I was just another shy kid
With heart turned Blue and violet
Just another eyelash on your eyel...
Wants 2
I want a trip to somewhere around the equator
Maybe away from technology, but closer to nature.
Gazing at the night sky from my hammock
Living off of sea water, coconuts and manioc.
Crossing oceans, without a worry on my mind
Away from the addicting creations of mankind.
Trying out fruits and berries, sweet and bitter
Somewhere there are tweets outside of Twitter.
I wanna go where 'natural' is more than a hashtag
Travel so much that I get immune to any jet lag.
Experience cultures out of a documentary
Discover secrets hidden away for a century.
Eat foods that don't have a no carbs version
Somewhere, taking a walk isn't an exertion.
Reach an Amazon where the other one can't reach
A place where global warming is more than a speech.
I want to see the sunset across the ocean
Wants 1
I don't want your fancy parties and banquets
I just need my bed, a book and my blankets,
A hot cup of coffee, snuggling as the rain pours
Laying back and forgetting all of my chores.
I want a home filled with books and sweaters
I want to post everyday, some paper letters
Hear stories that last more than a day
About dragons and children far far away
The songs on the radio, but out of my car
The warmth of smoke, but not of a cigar.
Cooking warm delicious food, just for myself
Somewhere I don't have to clean the shelf.
...When
When you can't feel my heartbeat,
When I join the world under our feet,
When I'm under dirt and stones,
When plants grow in my bones.
When I'll have faced mayhem,
When I'm long forgotten by them,
When all my foes have enjoyed,
When I'm fallen deep in the void,
When all yours tears have dried,
When your mind is unoccupied,
When I no longer need the money,
When you've probably forgotten me,
When my mention is just deja vu,
That's when I'...
Twin Flames
How do you know you've met your twin flame?
Well, in your darkest days and your darkest hours, they're the beacon of light that shines through the darkness that consumes you.
They're the hope that makes you keep living, when all you want to do is stop existing.
They're your cheerleader in your greatest moments.
The ones that make you feel loved, when you don't love yourself.
Twin flames give you a reason to stay alive and keep living.
At times when you're on your knees about to give up on your dreams, twin flames will always be there to pick up and mend your broken pieces.
They're the ones that understand and hear you when no one else wants to listen.
And makes your life just feel a little bit easier to deal with.
Twin flames are the ones that carry pieces of you no matter how far apart you are in distance, but would never ma...
Roses
Say ya amazing grace hickory sweet victory taste mindful chase
Funk of scrolls old school rock and roll moving glitter sparkle
Yo it's the disco girls sitting comfortable uncontrollable
Emotions of the world coasting I play safe with a notion potion
Carefully position switching my direction compass my ambition
Pointed to the old roads where country for men dont extend
So lend me ya ears face all fears lay more tracks than John Deer
Catch my peers music piercing the edge of ya ears keep it clear
When ya twitching cant stop the heat out of the kitchen stitching
Intellects like blankets quilts no guilts follow truth that's built
Off of a solid foundation gangsta tackle 33 degrees but not a mason
Slash victims the black Jason trapping ya on my stations
Channel at zero below the cosmic cycle playing suicidal to rivals
IN THE DEEP SEA OF SLUMBER
Look, the child is sunk
in the sea of deep slumber
face down on the sea-shore.
Clad in his glittering,
exquisite red shirt
and tight blue jeans
and black shoes
he might have reached the sea-shore
without informing his elders.
See, he is always fond of
the vast expanse of the blue sea
which must have prompted
him to run away to the sea shore from home.
No one knows when he
reached the sea-shore.
One thing is certain
it was hours ago.
Wandering down the sea-shore
for a long time
under the blazing sun
he might have got tired and exhausted.
That might have led
him to fall asleep on the sea-shore
face down on the sand.
‘Aylaan, Aylaan, Aylaan’ -
somebody, perhaps his father or
some other elders from home
was heard calling him in a frightened voice
...
who am I?
Everyday my Identity doesn’t stay the same
It’s changes with whomever I meet, it changes with every hello and every hey
I get confused by which side I am on
Or if I am in both
Both sides intrigue me
Both sides keep me close
When I have one, I want the other
And when I have them both I want none
My lifestyle is confusing so I had to try it once
Till I reached my climax and things just got worse
My feelings get more confusing with every single verse
But I’ve learned how to live and I’ve learned how it works
I couldn’t go back to a life of lies
I couldn’t go back to being just one same guy
...