Suffocation

Suffocation
*
I'm running away from suffocation
I'm old enough to make up my own mind
I knows what is good for me
-
When my own freedom isn't mine,
When my happiness isn't mine, 
No matter how good I am, I suffocate 
-
I feel like I'm trying to please others
I wanna be me, I want my own life
I can't follow others to the end of me
-
Like a rat in a maze I'm trying to find me
As a parent let go, I'm my own person
As a lover don't push, I'm doing my best
-
You're suffocating me, I want out
I can't be what you've failed to be l tried
I wanna tour my own likes and dislikes
-
I'm suffocating, it's my curse
I'm trying to please everyone
You want me to be you admit it
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©Lungi Shigo Msusa

Guilt

Guilt

The sorrow, the hurt, the pain
The sad bad memories, 
The suicidal thoughts,
All are bad calls of guilt

You burning in your own fire everyday
You toss and turn sleep turns on you
Days are too long nights are scary
Love tries to comfort but guilt always win

Like a doctor on his first patient's death
It's always his fault, he thinks blindly
And death becomes cruel and targets him
Yes death is for the living not the dead

The sorrow, the hurt, the pain
The sad memories and suicidal thoughts
A disturbed mind and lack of life
Like addiction guilt sticks forever

Who are you without a guilty conscience
Are you sure you're still human?
What's with the heart of stone?
Get off your high horse life is gonna get you

Ice princess where's that heart of gold?
Politicians you were elected by people

Brainwashed by HISTORY

Brainwashed by HISTORY
*
From a generation of God's creation
I believed a man is the first being here
You're a part of my ribs only not all of me
So you're an inferior weak being to me
-
I can do many of the things you can do
But try to do what I can I'm the toughest
To balance scales your weapon is love
You love more and that's killing me softly
-
Love has a color of a union of eternity
Love has a weak heart full of passion
Yet love is stronger than anything alive
Love tames the fires of a brave dragon
-
Make me fall in love with your heart
Be intimate with me and ask who's strong
My manpower will be lost satisfying you
Oh you'll only cry, moan as we make LOVE
-
Bound by history of brainwashed HATE 
I forgot to give you love my sweetheart
I abuse your stronghold taking advantage
...

Merrily merrily life is but a dream

Merrily, merrily life is but a dream
*
Why do you always come here?
Why do you always darken my days?
Your anger doesn't talk and doesn't cry
I'm tired of waiting for your forgivenes 
-
I betrayed your love I caused you pain
But I'm still here, I wanna be your pain
I wanna see you everyday I'm Pain
Maybe that will heal both of us, let's talk
-
They say time heals all wounds
but you're afraid of our time in history?
Time doesn't go from January to December
But it goes straight to history for us
-
Time is shorter than we all think it is
Why do you always darken our joy?
Why can't we just ride on forgiveness?
Is your aim to punish our non existent history?
-
My dreams are haunted by your hate
Release me start the song let's sing
Our forgetten duet is calling for our voices

Maiden turned temptress

A maiden turned temptress
*
Denied a host through exorcism
A lost demon is wondering through time
Looking for innocent virgin as a new host
It needs to breed again it settles in Africa 
-
Africa an innocent impoverished planet
A perfect place for Lucifer to call home
God's word is talked about by only a few
Maidens are bootylicious from the cradle
-
Besides a rippling waterhole it waited
She felt a cold breeze searching her soul
Only hopeless mortal frame she is to him
She felt the cold embrace from the breeze
-
Terrifying trepidations a maiden is lost
A maiden is turned a temptress right there
Mortal soul has drank the tinted water
Desires for intimacy warmed her insides
-
Any type of man is desired by her soul
Captured she's a beautiful excited zombie
She wants a baby, she's gonna get you
Afr...

Highway to hell (18+)

Highway to Hell (18+)
*
Moonlight and roses my aphrodisiacs
Fullmoon has a history with my sex buds
They just come alive like Spring petals
Like a fox I howl with fullmoon thirsty for sex
-
I'm a blood thirsty horny hound to whores
Sex worker you quench my sex desires 
I fuck you good on full moon at o'clock 
You cry aloud as I pay you with scourge   
-
I love you unconscious with my scorn
You start hating my face after fullmoon 
I'm on a highway to hell my drunk dad
told me while beating my whoring mom 
-
Our hunger forced my mom to turn tricks
Alcoholic abusive dad made things worse
Never looked for a job with his anger
Always beating mom to a pulp on our watch
-
She turned a sex worker behind his back
Just for us to have food on the table
As an older sibling I hated both pa...

A story of poison Ivy

A story of poison Ivy

Lost in the dungeons of crazy desires
I'm a man running away from ageing
I'm caught up in the fountain of youth
Have tested the young blood's passion
In a planned sequence lazy soul is falling

To poisonous paradise I'm addicted 
New young heart got me rejuvenated
Poison Ivy why you for my heart?
Why creeping all over my heart?
Why me I'm deeply in love?

Noone has ever done this to me
I'm flying without wings, why?
One crazy taste of your lips I'm sold
Rights to my heart and my love 
I gave you not believe me

What do I tell my innocent baby love?
She's waiting for this troubled heart
You doing to me her heart's desire
Now you doing it excessively
Poison Ivy why me I'm in love?

She never did anything to you
All she ever does is loving me
Wha...

Stop women abuse

Stop women abuse
*
Looking at her pain now what do you see?
Are you happy you are a monster to her?
You've forgotten to be her lover...why?
You're just a coward in love with a punching bag
-
Why make her the prisoner of love?
Love is supposed to bring joy inside
Love is supposed to make her glow
Yours it's bringing sorrow and misery 
-
Why do you love to laugh at her shivers?
Your upbringing has nothing to do with her
You are meant to love and cherish her
To be her strength in love and affection
-
You are a bully born from a house of pain
Your anger is misdirected try me I'm your size
___
© Lungi Shigo Msusa 

In the Zone

In the Zone
*
When I'm in the Zone
I zoom in I concentrate
You're the only thing in mind
I do right and say right words
-
I make love passionately
The love I had for you overwhelms
I take you places you've never been
You moan in tongues and call out my name
-
Your multiple orgasms take time
You push me away in anger like I've done something wrong you kick in spasms you wanna be left alone for a while
-
When I'm in the Zone love follows trend 
I'll never be alone in the Love Zone
___
© Lungi Shigo Msusa

In the Zone

In the Zone
*
When I'm in the Zone
I zoom in I concentrate
You're the only thing in mind
I do right and say right words
-
I make love passionately
The love I had for you overwhelms
I take you places you've never been
You moan in tongues and call out my name
-
Your multiple orgasms take time
You push me away in anger like I've done something wrong you kick in spasms you wanna be left alone for a while
-
When I'm in the Zone love follows trend 
I'll never be alone in the Love Zone
___
© Lungi Shigo Msusa

In the Zone

In the Zone
*
When I'm in the Zone
I zoom in I concentrate
You're the only thing in mind
I do right and say right words
-
I make love passionately
The love I had for you overwhelms
I take you places you've never been
You moan in tongues and call out my name
-
Your multiple orgasms take time
You push me away in anger like I've done something wrong you kick in spasms you wanna be left alone for a while
-
When I'm in the Zone love follows trend 
I'll never be alone in the Love Zone
___
© Lungi Shigo Msusa

In the Zone

In the Zone
*
When I'm in the Zone
I zoom in I concentrate
You're the only thing in mind
I do right and say right words
-
I make love passionately
The love I had for you overwhelms
I take you places you've never been
You moan in tongues and call out my name
-
Your multiple orgasms take time
You push me away in anger like I've done something wrong you kick in spasms you wanna be left alone for a while
-
When I'm in the Zone love follows trend 
I'll never be alone in the Love Zone
___
© Lungi Shigo Msusa

Chains of love

Chains of love
*
Chains of love ties my heart to you
It's a crimson moon you are dancing
And my dance is on crimson tides
There's no smile in falling Autumn leaves 
-
I'm in love but I wanna run the other way
My face is crimson with embarrassment
Your token of love is too much for my loving heart, It can't be this hot in autumn
-
My gosh you have burning love desires
You are more than my fire could handle
My loving heart is always a step behind
Your loving ego so uptown for me it's an embarrassment
-
Unchain my heart we're stars away in love
Don't make me close the door let me walk
___
© Lungi Shigo Msusa

Chains of love

Chains of love
*
Chains of love ties my heart to you
It's a crimson moon you are dancing
And my dance is on crimson tides
There's no smile in falling Autumn leaves 
-
I'm in love but I wanna run the other way
My face is crimson with embarrassment
Your token of love is too much for my loving heart, It can't be this hot in autumn
-
My gosh you have burning love desires
You are more than my fire could handle
My loving heart is always a step behind
Your loving ego so uptown for me it's an embarrassment
-
Unchain my heart we're stars away in love
Don't make me close the door let me walk
___
© Lungi Shigo Msusa

How can I ease the pain

How can I ease the pain?
*
Seating watching the misty blue see
I felt it's pain inside and its loneliness
The fog has captured it's heart jealously
The face is gloom, who has passed on?
-
Who's taken your shine away Mr sea?
Is your sun stolen by the ugly seagulls?
I see them eating the confused fishes
There's no laughter of penguins  in love
-
But to my surprise your meadows  are bright
They're watching the wonder in curiosity
Is there something sinister under the fog?
The fog is from the horizon to the cost
-
Well now I'm starting to miss my sunshine
I'm missing the laughter of sea life
__
© Lungi Shigo Msusa

She wants a he or a her

She wants a her or a him
*
She belongs to the Elite's club
No church no higher being
No man to tell her a what not
She has her high life to live on a laptop
-
Life nowadays is technically feasible
Her Elite's club hooks her up at a click 
She pays for her topclass fullfillment 
No regular, she doesn't have to know you
-
She's flying high on the Elite's cult
She's a beautiful nob and she's organized
She pays you go away forever, you're done
She's gonna enjoy you that all she wants
-
Happy with life she a high roller
Now all she wants is a baby to love
___
© Lungi Shigo Msusa

A better tomorrow

A better tomorrow
*
I'm looking at life with an eagle's eye
What I see is impaling to the eye
Hoovering over the heads at work
the good that men did interred with their bones 
-
Martin Luther King Jr had a dream
Nelson Mandela had a good vision
I found myself looking deep at the dreams and visions of the two esteemed men
-
In our creator's heart dying was never on the menu until after the first sin in Aden 
I'm in Aden again with the visions of Nelson Mandela and the dreams of Martin Luther
-
My township is breathing anew mother is on the stove soul food smells great
The greenery is back the hand of God is out minding over dying, it Paradise again
-
I'm smiling again as I come back to Earth
An eagle has to land, this time I'm full of change, my paradise is possible with each one teaching many the teachings of life
-

Call me angry call me mad

Call me angry, call me mad
*
Born the same day
Born at the same center
But you don't know my name
-
Your life is different
from mine, we didn't
grow up the same way
And we never shared our
dreams
-
We feel the same pain
Why act like you don't know
my pain, why, my pain is 
different from yours?
-
Remember we are all
tributaries of that great
river of pain flowing into 
one ocean
-
There's only one ocean all 
the pains flow into it but
it'll spill over the waters of
blood into a great national
floods before we recognize
that all the oceans are one?
-
You life is different from mine
Your life is taking another way
-
Go
-
Go on and live your life
Go on
-
   See you when we're old'...

Bewitched 5

Bewitched 5
*
I'm in a hospital, a single ward
I'm tied to the bed like a lunatic
The ward is isolated and secured
The steel door opens the light comes in
-
Wifey is with a beautiful woman in white overcoat, she must be my doctor
"Hi sweetie you're awake!"
"Yeesss I'mmm awakeee darlingggg"
-
Said a voice with so much baritone
Angry trying to get out of the restrictions
That's not me, I can't be that sarcastic
I'm suppressed somewhere inside me
-
"Chicco, Chicco can you hear me?"
I can hear the doctor I'm trying to talk
My voice can't come out I'm in agony
"He can'ttt hearrr youuu he'sss minee"
-
My God what is happening to me?
Why wifey is acting like she cares
I still remember everything, I'm awake
I still want to hold my head...

My regalia of happiness

My regalia of happiness 
*
I wear my heart on my forehead for you
I take you in my boosom's warm embrace
You are in the milky way of happiness 
the constellation of my beautiful dreams 
-
I give myself to you my heart is visible
My aroma is perfumed by years of good loving under the burner merry go round
I keep giving back love as much as I get
-
I put my loving heart on display for you
The platter so shiny you fall in love everyday
My love regalia is my heart in blissful shine
God is love I'm His angel stay convinced
-
Take your time look at the menu
Don't take my regalia for granted
__
© Lungi Shigo Msusa

Thando umkhulu

Thando umkhulu
*
Thando umkhulu
Wandithatha apha
Mandibeka phaya
-
Thando umkhulu
Uvusa umnyele
Wesikhwele kwisidala
-
Thando umkhulu
Umzimba wam
Uthuthumba kamnandi
-
Thando umkhulu
Uthatha ixesha
Uhlala ezintliziyweni
-
Kutheni kakade besitsho?
Kodwa kum wataka
Ndakuthanda ngokubona
Nawe wandithanda zisuka
-
Thando umkhulu
Ndityibilika encindini
Yenyaniso kuwe
-
Thando umkhulu
Indebe yam
Iyaphalala
-
Thando umkhulu
Uyithathile intliziyo yam
Sithandwa sam
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© Lungi Shigo Msusa

Like I never left

Like I never left
*
I know the sky falls
I know seasons change
Hearts break and mend
It's night and it's day
-
True love stays the same
You believed me, I said forever
I said I'll never leave your love
I might be gone but I left you not
-
Look at them shinning stars
Remember them shinning on us
In our hearts they glowed with love
Remember no one could turn them off
-
Smile with the rising sun I'm rising too
Our love was fresh like the rising sun
What is that gloom on your face?
You believed, I told I'll never leave you
-
I'm not gone your love sees me daily
Like I never left your love is with me
Can you just believe in our love like I've never left, I'm still in love with you always
-
Open yourself to love again you'll feel me
Don't blind yourself nothing is...

Bewitched 4

Bewitched 4
*
I'm half conscious I'm trying to move
I'm on the floor wifey is on the phone
The Buzz is moving inside my brains
Wifey, when did she get in here? Just saw her in a dream
-
The Buzz is eating my brains now
It's going nowhere else, it's for brains
"You should have been asleep"
Wifey is kneeling over me repeating her words
-
Wifey, the smirk on her face she's happy
Now I'm convinced wifey Is a witch
I'm trying to speak my brain isn't working
Epilepsy is holding me to the floor
-
Medics enter in a hurry, the Buzz is working fast now I'm holding my head with both hands as my feet are kicking
"She's a witch, I'm being bewitched."
-
I'm telling but medics are tying me down
"My wife is a witch, look she's smiling"
Wifey is smiling a donkey&#...

Bewitched 3

Bewitched 3
*
It's daylight I'm myself doing great
Memories of a bad dream still lingers
Wasn't a dream it was a bad nightmare
Wifey keeps reminding me I have to forget
-
Didn't tell her about the bitter mouth
I drank something in my nightmare
I remember the Buzz entering my ear
Threading slowly to my brain
-
My God I could tell it's path, I felt it 
But well there's no such thing as witchcraft
The lady nextdoor can't look me in the eye
She was there I called out her name in the episode
-
The course of the day I keep going back to the dream with a fear of the unknown
Something is inside my brain I'm sure
That's the unknown I'm scared of, that Buzz 
-
I can't work my brain keeps going back to the images, I can remember every naked women who was in my dream but one
I can't see...

Bewitched 2

Bewitched 2
*
I hear it making a buzzing sound
It's in my face it wants a place to land
It's dark I'm fighting a buzzing sound
Buzzing like a mosquito I can't see it
-
It's the wee hours of twilight just after o'clock
In the dead of the night my nightmare is up
A bad dream has me sitting up on my bed
I'm afraid of the invisible hands tying me down
-
The buzz landing in my ear enters me
I can feel it threads slowly to my head
Really afraid now I'm follow it's course
What ever it is it flows with my blood
Voices are whispering a bad lullaby
-
Female voices I recognize I'm calling them to get away from me and leave me alone
I'm sweating shiver, what are they doing to me, what's moving inside my brains
-
The threading stops I wake up sweating
What kind of a dream was this?
My God I...

Bewitched 1

Bewitched 1
*
Born in a culture so strong in beliefs
We grew up very afraid of the dark
Something sinister was always lurking
The fight between good and evil affected us
-
Full of beliefs love finds you and you fall
You go to a healer first to give you Muti
Muti is a mixture of African herbs from a Sangoma (witch doctor) to resist evil
-
You're in love and you have proposed
The night of your stag party just before dawn wearing your wedding suit you go to your Sangoma for the ritual  
-
You get cleanse and you are made strong
You drink from the cauldron of the witchdoctor, naked you sweat in its steam
The trust you have in the ritual is from the old belief that a Sangoma knows best
___
© Lungi Shigo Msusa

Pursuit of happiness

Pursuit of happiness
*
Like in a bad dream
I find my heart in agony again
Love has a way of always eluding me
I can feel I'm losing the love inside me
-
The web of darkness has it's mark
The power unknown to me is at work
Destroying my new found happiness
I'm not letting it I can't go back to lonely again
-
The power vested in me is saying no
I really want this love, I'm really in love
I'm waking up from a reclused emptiness
The shadows are clearing I won't go back 
-
Like fighting for my life in an exorcism
I reached out for her in a dark sepulchre
Love inside found her loving hand again
Dark clouds against my joy vanished
-
I'm in love bliss again I won't let go
My pursuit of happiness is in her love 
__
© Lungi Shigo Msusa

The pursuit of happiness

Pursuit of happiness
*
Like in a bad dream
I find my heart in agony again
Love has a way of always eluding me
I can feel I'm losing the love inside me
-
The web of darkness has it's mark
The power unknown to me is at work
Destroying my new found happiness
I'm not letting it I can't go back to lonely again
-
The power vested in me is saying no
I really want this love, I'm really in love
I'm waking up from a reclused emptiness
The shadows are clearing I won't go back 
-
Like fighting for my life in an exorcism
I reached out for her in a dark sepulchre
Love inside found her loving hand again
Dark clouds against my joy vanished
-
I'm in love bliss again I won't let go
My pursuit of happiness is in her love 
__
© Lungi Shigo Msusa

I'd rather be blind

I'd rather be blind
*
Living my cosy house
I inhale the smell of dead dogs
No SPCA/Pet's cemetery for dogs
-
I'd rather be blind
-
Stabbed youth on my porch
I can't stanch the oozing blood
Can anyone please dial 10111?!
-
I'd rather be blind
-
Streetlights stay broken for years
Is the shadow behind the serial rapist on the news, I can't wait to find out, I run
-
Back in my cosy house there's laughter
Kids are playing Gran has cooked the smell of rice and chicken soup is hope to them
-
I'd rather be blind
-
Have they seen what I've seen? No
And they're too young to ask anyway
What will I tell them tomorrow?
-
I'd rather be blind
-
Am I sure they would never grow up?
Why am I still living in the township?
The system is keeping me broke...

I wear my heart on my back

I wear my heart on my back
*
I wear my heart on my back
Hiding the love we had before
To me it's still going on
To me love don't just die like that
-
I wear my heart on my back
Hiding the pain it felt 
When you said goodbye
Still asking myself why didn't I say 
"Fair thee well"
-
I wear my heart on my back
Hiding it from the morning in my room
Our morning tea has a pinch of whiskey
For the sore heart since you went away
-
I wear my heart on my back
Cause missing you is doom
And hiding it in my room is living
Hiding my aching heart from the world
Waiting for you in my room
I know love will bring you back home
___
© Lungi Shigo Musa

I stand accused

I stand accused
*
I stand accused 
of loving you too much
The neighbors are talking
-
Oh I stand accused
-
Sometimes I wished she'd stop 
trusting me too much with you
-
Oh I stand accused
-
Sometimes I wish you would stop trusting me too much either
-
Oh I stand accused
-
My mama is saying 
she knows a man's heart
She doesn't know yours
Yours belongs to her forever
-
Oh I stand accused
-
I see her coming back 
from a business trip 
with presents and watches
I see your face lighting up, 
the love of your life is home
-
Oh I stand accused
-
"I love you not her"
Oh I couldn't believed my ears
I was deaf
You said it twice 
still I was deaf
Love can hit you so hard 

Storm of opportunities

Storm of opportunities
*
At sunrise the mind full of loving I'm admiring the smooth sailing of a yacht undisturbed close to the shores in a storm
It's going to be a good day, I've just had my morning tea
-
The sea of opportunities hit me hard
The golden gate is always visible, enter
Sailing the storm is always possible
You build an unsinkable Titanic
You keep your mind on solid foundation
-
You romance the storm, 
Always remember in the season of sardines in the sea full of sharks, the opportunities are limited by aggressive sharks but sardines are back the following season
-
I paint a masterpiece on the canvas of my pale painting again, I'll go fishing again there are plenty more fishes in the see and that gave rise to my fight for my survival
Everyone needs love
-
Looked at the blue horizon in the morrow uncharted sea attracted my unchained mi...

Prelude to sex (+18)

Prelude to sex (+18)
-
A candle light dinner
With a smile on his heart
He kisses me passionately
I'm felt the earth move on my neck
-
His tongue on my neck
I felt the prickling love inside
He had to carry me to the bedroom
I'm wet inside as he takes my clothes off
-
I'm floating in love with desires of a wet dream as he kisses my breasts going down to my nakedness as he takes my panties off I want him inside me I'm burning I'm on fire
-
He's taking his time kissing my toes
He knows I love that I moan in ecstasy
This is his modus operandi, I love it
A real prelude to sex
___
© Lungi Shigo Musa

A woman in love

A woman in love 
-
You broke
My heart
I wasn't expecting
It from you
My love
For you
Was a given
-
Your wondering
Eye needs
A full stop
Your loving
Heart needs
To grow up
My feelings
Are hurt
-
Don't baby me
I have eyes
Don't prick
My jealousy
Let it sleep
I'm your lover
Not your toy
-
Call me when
You sure of
What you want
Call me
When you
Are ready
For love
I'll be waiting
__
© Lungi Shigo Msusa 

Looking through cloudy pane

Looking through cloudy pane
*
My life so deep in agonizing pain
I peep through my window pane
Like a grizzling child the light rain
Is singing a sad song dancing with my mood
-
The drizzle is soft and trying its best
To take me places I don't wanna be
Wanting me to remember happiness
I used to dance and sing to the soft rain
-
Comforting as it is my dancing shoes
are heavy I can't let myself remember
Anyway who's gonna dance with me?
Who can dance with the heavy heart?
-
I can smile I can sing but I can't dance
Like I used to in the drizzle with him
I will love him forever but he'll never know
I will love him with all my heart but he'll never know
-
I've dug my hole so I must own the agony
I lied, I cheated, I broke his heart
__
© Lungi Shigo Msusa

Cinderella in Mdantsana 5

Cinderella eMdantsane 5
*
After we had talk Dr Maliza ask the child psychologist to come to us after he had told me about her. Wow the woman was beautiful. Her smile made me her patient that moment. We became friends that moment. It was that moment that I realize that I like beauty, everything beautiful was attracting me. My good doctor was beautiful, her wife was beautiful. Yes the bastard never told me that day that Dr Esakhe Mdluli is his beautiful wife. I had to hear that from Sisi Nomso days after I've left the hospital. 

Dr Mdluli set down with me and told me everything. The beautiful energetic doctor jumped on to my bed to be at the same level with me like we were both kids. She took the other end while her husband was standing next to me and holding my hand. 

"Cindy I've been here before with Dr Maliza. He's the one who showed me you and told me about your bravery. I fell in love with you at that moment, it was lov...

Cinderella in Mdantsana 4

Cinderella in Mdantsane 4

My mom was a crier in our family, I think I got the crying vice from her. Wow, she was a beautiful lady, nothing like her younger sister, auntie Mavis. She would cry real tears sometimes, even when she see me running to her when I arrived back from school to show her my class marks report. I would get out of the car fast and rush inside to her, leaving my dad there locking the car. She would hug me with excitement and lift me up, as I show her my school report. (She loved school and she loved doing homework with me). Then she would put my head on her shoulder and cry, just out of the blue saying sometimes like;
"You are my genius, you are my genius. I would never let anyone ever hurt you again."
The first time I heard that I was confused. I remember saying to her;
"I'm ok mama, nothing had happened to me, I just passed all my subjects. I'm A+ average remember? You don't have to cry."
Well...

Cinderella in Mdantsana 3

Cinderella in Mdantsane 3
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Someone was bound to tell me where my parents were. Imagine a young kid of ten confused? Confused more by the people she was seeing for the first time in front of her claiming they were related to her and were there to take her away. To take her away from Sisi Nomso, the only friend she had and the good doctor, who was the only person who was nice to her. The people who were there to take her home were strangers to her. 
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Yes they were scary strangers to me. The cousins that are my age were scared of me like I was a creature from another planet. They had that shy look on their faces that really annoys a person. It's was only the three of us in my ward but they were busy holding on to each other like I was going to jump them from that bed and eat them. We were almost of the same age for God's sake, they knew something about me, they should have said something. I opened for them, I've said "hi'' to ...

Cinderella in Mdantsana 2

Cinderella in Mdantsane 2
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"Mama Sindarela is wearing my top."
"What? Come on Doli we need to go. We are late already."
Shouts auntie from downstairs. Doli didn't even borrowed my top before shouting out that I'm wearing her top.
"uSindarela is the one who's making us late mama."
Sindarela is how you pronounce my name in Xhosa, my home language.
Damn I know something bad is gonna happen to me once aunty comes into my room. Doli has just entered my room and found me secretly fitting my new top. I forgot to lock the door. No one knocks in my room but it's the rule that I must knock at theirs. 
I'm fourteen this time. Doli (Dolly) is sixteen. She is the oldest of the two cousins. The other one is fifteen. Her name is Nozipho - we call her Nozi. They are both slender like I am especially Doli. Just like her name she is like Barbie doll. Nodoli is a Xhosa name for a Barbie doll...

Cinderella in Mdantsana 1

Cinderella in Mdantsane 1

My name is Cinderella Sonata. I'm 32 years old. I'm residing in N.U. 13 Mdantsane Township next to East London. Eastern Cape, South Africa. 
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I've never finished even high school but I'm good at what I'm doing now. 
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My parents and I where involved in a car accident when I was 10. I'm the only one who survived that accident. I woke up in hospital not remembering anything but all I saw were the machines that were keeping me alive days after the accident. Not all where connected to me to me today when I woke up but I could see that they were a few days ago. 
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I didn't know where I was at first until I saw nurses and doctors around me and all were happy I was up and alive.
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Who am I? I didn't know at the time. A good doctor who was very good looking and good with kids told me my name is Cinderella Sonata. He told  me to relax and go back to...

Famine

Famine
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Lost in translation
Lost in the beauty of life
Lost in the beauty of rebirth
Tell me who are we;
With fat bellies leading the highway
We chasing coins and skirts
We are afraid to look back
That would tell us exactly who we are
You tell yourself you'll never go back there
You've been there you've got the stained t-shirt to tell a story so sad it's buried
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Do you remember who you've left behind; 
Do you remember who's still at the trenches;
You're not from a dustbin you were born
Mr President are you clean at heart or it's only the White House that's only clean;
Remember my mother cleans it
And your thanks you is to forget about my father left home with the kids
What about my grandfather and grandma;
Mr Taxman who do you pay;
Famine is for who;
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© Lungi Shigo Msusa

Burning beds

Burning beds

"What have I done now? I'm sorry" 
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Whenever jealousy spits its ugly green tail again on packed scars of my tortured face
Fear starts to kick my chest, my heavy heart beats so fast my legs can't hold it
Inside my burning soul my voice is trapped I'm miles away running to nowhere
My bed is a deathtrap to my tortured soul and it turns a drunken monster's den
I'm a punching bag of my own bloody painful tears of fear
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"What have I done now? I'm sorry"
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On my prayers he fall on his own anger
My strength found me, Lord I run out
On my speed now it was like he was after me, lurking on every corner I turn
I'm not going back to him this time I swear, he forgot to be a lover he's a monster, I found my anger saying that - and thanks Lord he isn't chasing me
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© Lungi Shigo Msusa

A dying breed 3

A dying breed 3
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There's no other who can dare 
Make me feel this way under azure
Everyone has someone to love
Mine is the mother of my kids
Twin girls three going eleven
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Love talk the heart listen
Love sing the heart dance
What's inside four walls tells a love story
Two hearts living in just one mind
Heart to heart means exactly that
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No longer using one heart to breathe
She uses two, Lord I gave her mine too...
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Ok if you don't believe me, let me draw you today's picture under my four walls:
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The kids are playing house in their doll house under the supervision of their nanny, an old English woman who is also their home schooling teacher and a sweetheart. It's the weekend after a hectic week of rekindling a love so true. It's after lunch I'm watching sport on the Teli like I normally do, she hates that sometimes<...

A dying breed 2

A dying breed 2
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A morning of reminiscence
I've got it all this morning, I'm smiling
Morning glory I'm in seven seas
Tell me you love me once more
I return to bed and we'll both never wake up from love making
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I'm a career woman, I'm a mother
When love comes calling, I'm a wife
I'm a one in three and in all that I'm a daughter too to a mother who has a high claim
Since my father's death I'm all she has, 
She's the oldest to my three year olds twins
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Wow! Let me not forget to tell you about yesterday's dinner. I told you I didn't think we'll finish the food. My love was so charming he was always on point, flawless. His enticing and yummy food was all foreplay to my inner thirsty soul. 
On the other side of the table he was shining like a Greek god of love with the charms of James Bond, my favorite male actor ...

A dying breed 1

A dying breed 1
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The kitchen is sparkling clean
The air is inviting like his smile
My man is in his new black suit
The candle light dinner is smelling so yummie, it's dinner for two
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"Where are the kids?" I asked still shocked, my smile is up to my ears
I wasn't expecting this today
Before he could answer I asked again
"What is going on, our anniversary is in three months, what am I missing?"
My smile is still on his serious face. With his bowtie he's like my favorite actor Sean Connery the original James Bond. I'm still smiling like a teenager.
"Nothing is going on and the kids are with your mother I asked her nicely to just have them for tonight I want to do something special for you."
This must be serious he doesn't like my mom, they both have thick skulls but I love them both too much.
"My mom, agreed to have the kids on...

Musked ball

Masked Ball
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Was I a long one night stand;
Did he played me for a fool;
My heart, my love, my money, why;
Was I that blind; thought he loved me
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We on the dance floor
I disrespectfully cuts in
He's dancing with a new girl
A new victim I guess
He knows how to choose them
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She beautiful, elegant in her mask
Expensive like a price tag of her dress
I won't let her be fooled the way I was
I can see his charms working
I remember exactly her laugh, that was me
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Cutting to the chase while we dancing:
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"What is happening?"
"Where? Who are you?"
"I know you can recognize me under this mask, you never called again!"
"I know ve'been busy... sorry away."
"Yes busy making out with others after you were done with me."
"Hey told you I was ma...

Serpent's heel

A serpent's heel
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A love so conniving 
Like a serpentine course of the river
It meanders into a heart so pure
Leaving roses of confusing gestures
Confusing true love's meaning
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Can love be ever so true when 
the heart is poisonous in purpose;
The route so serpentine in the direction 
of destiny kisses are a disappearing dust
blinding eyes of passion to win at any cost
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She devil with a serpent's hissing noise harnessing voodoo at night saying sleep baby sleep just to make you hers forever
With a serpent's heel she's neither here nor there but love is stolen
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With a serpent's heel love is so hot
like a volcano's lava burning you to sleep believing you're over the moon in love
Satisfied or not love is captured 
Don't call the priest too soon, listen
to mama she's never wrong ab...

Swanky Swan

Swanky Swan, a village's love story
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Swanky Swan, mother's pride 
Gone girl, gone, it's a migration
Mother can't fly, can't migrate
Hurt, hurt, feelings are hurt
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Goodbye is too good a word
No fare thee well, no goodbye
Bond broken, misty eyes,
Misty eyes can't smile with the season
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Love jar is empty, broken,
Door always left ajar, missing
Swanky Swan, Swanky Swan
Is your white coat still clean?
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Swanky Swan, Swanky Swan
Swanky Swan is back
Season has changed
Mother's love rejuvenated
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Mother, mother, calls the village
Your daughter is back, Swanky is back
Cold scars, she's missing the warmth
Bring your warmest blanket, bring your smile
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© Lungi Shigo Msusa

My heart is yours

My heart is yours
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Boo boo boo, boo boo boo
Rhythm of my heart is beating like drum
From my past, she's here looking for me
My first kiss at 5, my crush since 14 years
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Boo boo boo, boo boo boo
Love sprinklers I can't close the tap
All are gonna find out I'm still crushing
Was never a secret crush even then
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Boo boo boo, boo boo boo
All eyes on me, no place to hide
She's always been my only crush
First kiss, kindergarten, still on my lips
Gorgeous girl now, still high maintenance
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"Hi Tom, we're back here to stay again, my dad had bought back the house."
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Oh my word, I don't know what to say
Always been a shy person when it comes to girls and the heart isn't helping
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Boo boo boo, say something you coward
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"I'm sorry I never called, I wanted to but I was a sh...

History is worthy

History is worthy
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Every time we try to think we are reigning champions
Nature reveals the originals that paved the way
I'm in awe of the ancient history told either by mouth or by the paintings of Bushmen 
Or the craft of the stone age that gave birth to these painted minds with imaginations 
From the beginning of time we evolved
Our uniqueness took center stage
We fought for identity
I wanted to be different from you, I wanted to be unique
Distance, time and space gave me just that
Maybe billion light years away my ancestor was a white man's ancestor;
What if the African sun gave me this black uniqueness, I evolved through distance and time!
What if we are one people, one colour, one nation;
Through distance and time (millions of time difference) we evolved
Look at a story of a butterfly no one knew until someone witnessed
What if at this moment we are...

A romantic

A romantic
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Happy as a romance novel in her hands
I'm the main character in her love life
Her love for romantic writes makes me knows exactly how she wants to be loved
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As the full moon takes his heart across twilight dripping internal love for her and her heart missing him like a rose missing the morning dew drops
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The poet in the novelist gives her a mushy heart, I stop working nights at the office
Hurt his character is Inflicting on her we are romance characters and I love it
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In the morning I take her into my arms, like a chameleon I'm one with her thirsty heart just to kiss the thirst away telling her I love her more each day
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That's the assurance she needs as a romantic just like Elizabeth on Pride and Prejudice, she thinks I'm full of pride because of my success, I'm not, I'm inlove
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I'm in love with a romantic and I love it
I'm...

History is worthy

History is worthy
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Every time we try to think we are reigning champions
Nature reveals the originals that paved the way
I'm in awe of the ancient history told either by mouth or by the paintings of Bushmen 
Or the craft of the stone age that gave birth to these painted minds with imaginations 
From the beginning of time we evolved
Our uniqueness took center stage
We fought for identity
I wanted to be different from you, I wanted to be unique
Distance, time and space gave me just that
Maybe billion light years away my ancestor was a white man's ancestor;
What if the African sun gave me this black uniqueness, I evolved through distance and time!
What if we are one people, one colour, one nation;
Through distance and time (millions of time difference) we evolved
Look at a story of a butterfly no one knew until someone witnessed
What if at this moment we are...

We living in the hit and run

We living in a hit and run
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Can love save us?
The answer is an absolute No
We living in a hit and run
You love today you gone tomorrow
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The color of love is pale
Is a bouquet of dead flowers
a color of love, you tell me!
Do roses teach many about love?
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We really living in a hit and run
The money you work for today is
gone tomorrow, we chasing spending
Saving is the word of the few
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Look at a child hit by a fast moving car
It was here everyone saw the tail lights
It's a hit and run the child is dead
Who's car was it, they all remain asking
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Here today gone tomorrow
We living in a hit and run
Look at the clock it's ticking
and ticking the sound is boring
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Like fast money we chasing a hit
It's in all of us to forget the next man
Kids are growing where is the gold?...

As we lay

As we lay
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We forget
About tomorrow
As we lay
Today is 
About you and me
As we lay
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We're entangled in
Stolen chance
Stolen memory
Unblessed
Victory
As we lay
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Birds are singing
Daytime is dancing
As we lay
Darkness creeps in
As we sleep the night away
As we lay
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Fire
Passion
And ecstacy
Are our fragrances
As we lay
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Intimacy is loving
The night away
As we lay
We forget all else
As we lay
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Then 
The morning comes
As we lay
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We both belong 
To someone else
As we lay
We try hard to
Forget about yesterday
As we wake up
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House is calling
We say goodbye 
To yesterday
We say goodbye
To memories
As we leave<...

Nightmares in the night

Nightmares in the dark
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The burden
The sorrow
The loneliness
The heavy heart
Are all nightmares in the dark
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Then the day comes
Like clockwork it comes
Smile is forced again
Greeting is forced again
No one is the wiser
Underneath my thick skin
A heart is dying
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Then again darkness comes
Like clockwork it comes
The middle of the night
Is my crying time
I pray the Lord my soul to take
But all are nightmares in the dark 
No one can see a grown man cry
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Just because
When you said goodbye
I made up a lie
I told everyone you've gone visiting
I told everyone that I'm good
The only lies l could tell smiling
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Like clockwork the night comes
The middle of the night is when I cry
Asking the Lord my soul to take
And like clockwork midday comes<...

Raven Quill

Raven Quill
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Call it toxic love
In your eyes
Lovers on a razor wire
That's what we are
Like a raven, love is dark
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Rave parties 
Mad dance floors
Intoxicated minds
Love doomed to end
Is thee unending love story
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Love her raven hair
My raven, she is to me
A raven in the dark, dangerous
Her quiet black eyes and black skin
Makes me fall in love everyday
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We fight like vultures
Like a pack of ravening wolves
Fighting over a dead prey
Love making so mad
Like we on a razor wire bed
She gives as mad as she gets
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But her Raven Quill soothes
Her Raven Quill romances
Love so toxic yet so loving
Love so doomed yet it's ours
Like a Raven it's dark love
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Calling each other names
Is not so bad after all
Raven Quill heart 
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Sometimes

Sometimes
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We run
away from our
Fears
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Our fears makes us strong 
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If we face them
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Sometimes
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Facing boundaries
is the break
the soul needed
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Sometimes 
the shadow
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is our own body
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© Lungi Shigo Msusa

It's a crazy crazy world

It's a crazy crazy world
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It's life we can't run away from,
the world is becoming very personal
Clouds for the first time are telling
stories and they are very personal too
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Can we just agree we have no control
over all the changes that befall us!
A kid wants to know why he's born with adult pain, is he to blame for our mistakes?
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The world is changing and we don't know how it happens, changes come left and right we can't pin point the starting points
We cry for loved ones that are far and close
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Climate change is upon us and the burning Ozone layer is blamed on civilization
Dark clouds befall us yet we need the industrial revolution and we need clear skies
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We cry for loved ones in our verses like maidens who are about to marry deceased grooms trapped in the fight against poverty for their families
Men have to work amidst the cha...

We living in a hit and run

We living in a hit and run
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Can love save us?
The answer is an absolute No
We living in a hit and run
You love today you gone tomorrow
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The color of love is pale
Is a bouquet of dead flowers
a color of love, you tell me!
Do roses teach many about love?
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We really living in a hit and run
The money you work for today is
gone tomorrow, we chasing spending
Saving is the word of the few
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Look at a child hit by a fast moving car
It was here everyone saw the tail lights
It's a hit and run the child is dead
Who's car was it, they all remain asking
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Here today gone tomorrow
We living in a hit and run
Look at the clock it's ticking
and ticking the sound is boring
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Like fast money, we chasing a hit
It's in all of us to forget the next man
Kids are growing where is the gold...

Losing yourself

Losing yourself
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Where are you now!
You are gone
Your mind is away
From your soul 
You busy trying 
To please friends
Who don't even
Know your name
No matter how many
Times you correct them
They just won't pronounce
Your name right, they just don't care
You are who and what they say you are
Take the hint, you don't belong
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You see the secret laughter
Yet you convince yourself
They are laughing at the weather
They are laughing at the bucking dog
I'm sorry stupid, they are mocking you
Wake up, you don't belong 
Why do you have to feel always
Uncomfortable around friends;
You losing yourself afraid of losing them
Can you get the hint!
Smell the roses, smell the coffee
Your see the smoke
But you blind your eyes to the real fire
Fire yoursel...

Baphina abandaziyo?

Baphi na abandaziyo?
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Thixo wam, Thixo wam
Ithambo le nyoka lihlaba
elimzondayo, mna ndenzeni?
Ndicela ukwazi isono sam
Baphi na abandaziyo?
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Ndizelwe ngu mnntu kantu nam
Ndenzeni kangaka emhlabeni?
Le nto umvambo utya mna ndedwa
Ubusuku nezolo, imihla ngemihla
Tata uphi na kulendlala?
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Ndichola isinka, ayisosam!
Ndiphiwa isheleni asiyoyam!
Phantsi kwe Bholorho akho mthetho!
Kudliwa efileyo ingavuthwanga injalo
Tywala ndini, baphi na abandaziyo?
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iNkwawu ityiwa ilila eMdantsane, 
iMfene isinda ngogoloza
Ndingakanani ke mna uba ndigoloze?!
Yho ndingakanani, ndingenaye notata!
Mama baphi na ooMalume
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Ndilanjiswa ngelithini na mna?
Mzali unesibindi osithatha phi?
Tywala! Yayaphi na imfesane kamama?
Indlala idlala ngam mama iza necebo
Wanikezela nje, baphi na abanye abas...

What can I say!

What can I say!
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Can I say I love you;
What if you say you say nothing;
Can I say I was born alone and thinking about someone else is hard;
What if you say I might need you tomorrow;
Can I say I had no choice;
What if you say there's always a choice;
Can I say I was in the dark too;
What if you say I have two bright eyes; 
What can I say really;
Can I say it was a mistake;
What if you say a mistake happens only once;
Can I say I love you;
What if you say then what happened;
Ok I say I'm sorry
What if you say think first;
What can I say;
I'm only human
What can I say;
You have all the answers
There are no what ifs
What can I say;
Can I say you are just crossed;
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© Lungi Shigo Msusa

Man cry too

Men cry too
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One day I'll fly away with a love bird
The moon will take me on it's embrace
Fairies will sing a new love song for me
In seven folds my happiness will matter
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Can you say the same when you 
can't hold on to loving one man, me;
From a distance you look like love
Afar you are every man's dream angel
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Love to you is like stardust dreams beauty in high heels, a catalog of mistakes
Like stardust it whines and disappears
Like a candle in the wind you burn out
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What kind of love are you falling for;
A candle doesn't lose it's light by lighting another, its glow shines on bright
Your candle holder burned, now you say!
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Love is not sleeping with luxury, I say
Love you looking for is sweat and
tears, sometimes you sweat blood
What can love do for you now you ask;
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Obviously...

Born free

Born free
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When I was young
Watched a movie
With the same name
Born Free, wow I cried
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A baby lioness trapped
In unfamiliar environment
From young age raised as a pat
Unfamiliar became her only world
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Wild heart imprisoned unfairly
Freedom snatched by the same
People who claim to love wild life
The same people who claim to be liberals
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Born free, a lioness was never a pat
Take a hawk and cage it, it will grow up
It would be twice the size of your homing pigeons and start asking questions
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Free the heart it will free the animal inside
Your love for animals is that of a jailer
Born free, free their spirits you'll free yours
Mr Jailer your heart in a right place but twisted
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Free the Kea Parrot it will never really talk, your circus has to end sometime Sir
Wildlife is beautiful without you ...

Roses bleeding in a dome

Roses bleeding in a dome
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I gifted you with my loving heart
You froze it under your jealousy
I gave you my love so intimate and tender
You violated my virgin valva 
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I didn't cry, I didn't shout stop
Loving heart so blind thinks it's okay 
First penetration is never comfortable
Love so blind didn't see the warning signs
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Gifted you with roses 
You boxed them in a dome
Loving heart didn't sob nor squeal
Found my way home before dying in love
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Accompanied by your lies and slander
Accompanied by your lies and jealousy
I swallow my pride, love doesn't love me
My roses bleeding in a dome as I leave
Didn't look back I'm only eighteen I'll love again
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© Lungi Shigo Msusa

Survival

Survival
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Best word meaning continuing to live
Against all odds you continue to exist
If you look at the lone flower in a desert
An arid region without any food for life
Mind goes to her will and determination
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Survival God's miracle to a chosen few
It's contagious if you want to catch it
Recipe not hidden, you adjust your mind
The situation is cancelled in your mind
You own the situation, it doesn't define you
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Your head is singing I'm a survivor
I'm gonna work harder against the odds
Like my flower you reap the rewards
Life a survival of the fittest they say
Hierarchy to the top is dark if you without eyes
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© Lungi Shigo Msusa

What is love?

What is love;
Why am I falling and falling;
Is falling everyday a sin;
If forever falling is wrong
I don't want to be right
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© Lungi Shigo Msusa

Falling for a recluse

Falling for a recluse
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Her unconditional love is so unique
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Carried me above the stars flying on laughter
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A recluse pampered to a merry bliss of love
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Her solicitude for a recluse turned us into perfect lovers
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© Lungi Shigo Msusa

Fear, a devil's trap

Fear, a devil's trap
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What's that fear inside you;
He's stealing your confidence so what!
He's not really there like he seems
He's a ghost story don't let him scare you
Morning you'll laugh at him with a crown

Fear is the first coward afraid of success
Remember we're all chasing o'clock here
The road is long winding and full of thorns
Remember you've been here before
Strike three you'll be really out

Before o'clock strike how many times
are you going to let fear step all over you
Take a road less travelled, beat the thorns
On the other side of the finish line join joy
Before o'clock strike fear is long gone

Like all ghost stories he was not really there like he seemed, laugh now the race is done

Fear a fragment of your imagination
Hiding in the dark pouncing weaknesses
Scolding the...

Sunflower, a beacon of hope

Sunflower, a beacon of hope
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Love for flowers attracts no blemishes
Mind the fragrance it's devilish 
Mind the color it's eye catching
A bouquet sprouts a love bug always

Sunflower, a beacon of hope
I'll never let it perish and die on me
I take a selfie in the yellow fields
Bees busy loving Pollen

I'm the sun I'm kind to it's beauty
It only cries when me, the sun, sets
It gives it's back to sunset in protest
But come morning the shy arms up again

Like a sunflower with thorns
Your jealousy is contagious
Poison Ivy where are you welcomed;
When a sunflower is a beacon of hope everywhere

Like a sunflower I look up to a new day
A new beginnings with welcoming arms
Like a sunflower I work the daylight,
Fold after sunset and sleep piecefully

From dusk to dawn respect is pouring in, it's...

Love of nature

Love of nature
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I love being in my own space
Surrounded by the silence of nature
The silence that is inviting
The silence that is capturing

Sometimes you'll 
Hear a tree talking
Sometimes dancing
Cause the wind is 
Playing soft music

Who am I to disturb that wonder;
Who am I not to join in
And dance to the wonder;
When nature is at its best mood
The best you don't see too often

Soon the silence can change
Then you will hear birds singing
Creatures enjoying their inhabitant
Creature great and small
Yes I love nature 
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© Lungi Shigo Msusa

A hammock

A hammock
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Like a hammock I lay
My body for everyone
To be free and be rooted

They all find me welcoming
As the big brother I'm their pillar
of strength, taking care of home

Big brother is watching
As an African man I'm blessed
I'm the heir to the family home

As a hammock I'm welcoming
The house is still a home for everyone
Siblings proudly gather every Christmas

Like a hammock I lay
My body for everyone
To feel a homely welcome

It's important as an African to keep roots
Where you coming from doesn't define you but you are proud to talk roots

I'm from the Eastern Cape Province
My roots are defined by the four walls
That have been there for ages

The family's burial site In the kept well
Like a hammock I lay my body
For every siblings to be proud of roots

L...

My anxiety and I

My anxiety and I
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My anxiety and I
Don't speak no more
And I'm starting to wonder
if that's a good thing
She was my first, 
I was a virgin

I've made my bed 
now I want to sleep at yours, 
I know you cried for my lost soul
You cried at my new found loneliness
I couldn't even tell you I love you
She told me no one would love me

My anxiety and I don't speak no more
Thinking back I wanted to tell you I love you but she wouldn't let me come anywhere near you and I'm so sorry, I was fighting an inside battle and the fear of losing myself was too high

My anxiety and I don't speak no more
Back then my fear of you was like a fear of dying, I'd sweat a million times close to you and I wouldn't even say hello, I wanted to but she wouldn't let me and I'm sure you wondered why I'd always change dire...

Merry Christmas memories

Merry Christmas memories
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My feet firmly on the group kissing the morning sunshine of a merry Christmas with my mandatory love for my sisters
Mama taught us the importance, I close my eyes and kiss the best memories

Christmas carols siblings singing
Family never missing the fun of the day
Conjuror with tricks still tingling my age
Dad would make money magically appear in my ear and I couldn't get the trick I'd get the laughter only

Laughter bourne in the spirit of family
Prickling tears of joy and of belonging
Guiding us to a merry Christmas of bliss
Believing in father Christmas and
tooth fairies a real joy of childhood
A good laughter decorating the tree too

Don't open your presents yet, was exciting
Though you didn't witness the arrival of father Christmas you could see the proof
You've been a good boy, there's your present with your na...

Looking at the scale of life

Looking at the scale of life
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We living in the fast world
As the hour Glass is slowly
chasing o'clock on midnight
We are chasing our lives left

The dark clouds of sin are red
Disrespect for the value of life
Is so common like pig's feed
Tell me what exactly made a pig fat?

Looking at the scale of life
It's heavy eye needs balancing
It's tilting to the left more like sins
Youth without direction, who are they?

Who is a future leaders in a chaos?
There's no bridge over troubled water
Dreams are old, chasing paper money
Game of thrones is played with twilight

The ladder is throw down every time
fat boy reaches the top hierarchy   
Fat boy is so heavy even the hour glass is taking sides asking who are you

Looking at the scale of life
The pendulum is slowly getting tired
The hour glas...

Happier every morning

Happier every morning
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We all wishes to be happier every morning
Good morning good wish, good two words
When can we fly and be free like Skylarks;
Viruses are the only free souls sky flying 
Do we have to die first to experience a good morning;

We are free but with chained hearts
Hearts in love but spending nights alone
Most of the time we can't do as we wish 
Where is a good morning in the world;
Again chained hearts are confined in masks

Diseases are the future thorns messing our good mornings normalities
The atmosphere is so messed up we breathe life through our wounds of loss 
Every person has lost a loved one or knows someone with a broken musk

Africa wake up, we need happier mornings
Through past history vaccination is nothing new, thing new is the Delta variant
Covid who? Tell me you know the virus!
South Africa it doesn...

Midsummer night's dream

Midsummer night's dream
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Happy as I am in love, can't call myself spontaneous and going with the flow
Opposites attract, wifey a free soul like a butterfly in love, always dacing in ecstasy
Love is the air she breathe anywhere, anytime

Anywhere is play time on her love theater, bringing magic to my ever brimming love
We sing in the moonlight, we dance naked to the rise of the morning sunshine
Singing in the rain, we singing in the rain

My midsummer night's dream eager to show spontaneous initiatives, I caught the bug, her love a contagious feeling
Jumped on the band wagon we making love in the moonlight, rain drops soaking our skins, we are like birds on twig

I'm starring in my own movie, making love under the moonlight, audience a light rain
Midsummer night's dream realized on the dazz of happiness, I'm spontaneous
Spontaneousness is everyone's fan, I'm the ...

Goodbye mama

Goodbye mama
*
You left us with him and never looked back
He was never our tata mama, he was just your boyfriend
We were just too young we fitted in your purse

He was beating you, you say!
That gave you all the right to vanish on us without trace
He's gone to hell now, you are back

It's your house, you say!
Where were you when we nearly died of hunger, when we were persecuted by the scams of this land?!!
Where were you when we fought day in day out just to stay alive, when we ate breadcrumbs he left yesterday?!!

We were boys, boys don't cry you say!
Where were you when we cried tears of blood mama, holding on to each other for dear life?!!
He was beating you, you say!
You had to run away, you say!

Did he make you bleed, have you seen us bleed mama?!!
Have you seen a bleeding heart?!!
Where were you when our hearts bled mama?!!

He lo...

Let me love you

Let me love you
*
Come join me myself I
I'm with my camera out dancing
The juices inside me are all out flowing
The mind is nowhere else but here
God has already said good morning, nice of you to be here, let me love you

Mother bird is chirping and dancing too
Smiling at us both, we're no threat to the young it is feeding from her mouth
Our ora is welcomed, we are one with the environment, the day has just said let me love you too 

God's nature has smelled my innocence
And Lion King is singing his nice song close by announcing his presence
Marking his territory with a nice roar while my camera and myself are talking to Birdy about the weather

The sky is so clear, falling in love with
me, it's really saying let me love you too
The clouds have taken a well deserved holiday, like I have announced the day and the time I'll be around to keep company t...

Can I kiss you;

Can I kiss you;
*
"Can I a kiss you?''
"What?
Did I hear you correctly Sir?''
"Yes, can I kiss you?''
"Are you crazy?!!
Who are you?!!"
"I'm just a guy,
A guy who finds you beautiful,
A guy who finds you attractive,
I'm just cutting to the chase,
Cos I know in the end
We are going to kiss,
It might not be now,
It might not be tomorrow,
But something tells me,
Tells me I've found my soulmate"

"You are crazy,
You've discovered all that this minute?!!
We strangers,
I don't kiss strangers,
I don't talk to strangers too"

"Me too, we're no strangers now,
Told you my heart talked,
Told me you're my soulmate,
You are the love of my life,
My heart is beating fast for you
Can I kiss you?&qu...

I'm married

I'm married
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I'm married to a monster
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I'm married
💍
I'm married to an abuser
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I'm married
💍
I'm married to a loser
💍
I'm married
💍
I'm married to a child molester
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I'm married
💍
I'm married to kill joy
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What happened?
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Ask again what happened
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I'm married
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I'm married to a jealous confused monster
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I'm married
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I'm married to someone I'm ashamed to even call my husband
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I hear my baby daughter crying and I pray the Lord her soul to take
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I see the monster coming out of her bedroom, I run inside to comfort her
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Why can't I go ...

I've said No!

I've said No!
*
I've said No! I've said No!
I'm someone else's kid too
I'm a wife, a girlfriend, not your ''Biatch"
I'm afraid and hateful inside, why?
The two faces are starting to show, why?
Who has God's given right to torture souls, why must I play a victim, I've said No!
No! With the capital N as in Nonsense
No to women abuse, there, I've said it
Now I hate you with vengeance
Watch my hateful side, my hateful face 
Sleep with one eye open, I might be afraid on the other side of me but be careful
I've said No! No means No!
I've said No! I've said No!
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© Lungi Shigo Msusa

A miracle of believing

A miracle of believing
*
Never let the sun 
goes down on you
The dark is more scary when 
alone in its tunnels of sins 
Evil is next to you every time

Light - a beam of hope
Light - a resurrection of soul
Light - a way home for lost ships
Light - needs awaken eyes to burn

Oppressed mind rises on dusty streets
Townships of ghettos bears fruits
With the nectar of presidency at times
Where there's a light there's a way

Crossed, I wasn't born 
with the silver spoon
I was born on the other 
side of the fence looking in

Looking in, other kids 
were whiter than I was
Enjoying all kinds of privileges, 
that almost burned out my light

A miracle of believing in me
Came with the light of success
The candle of hope breathed life into me
A miracle of belie...

A rooted voice

A rooted voice
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Knowing who I am is nothing
If I don't know where I'm from
My roots are my backbone in life
A strong family tree takes me home
Makes me who I am, gives a background

Mama, a woman so rooted in culture
Her knowledge of Africanism is amazing
Married to a proud clan name rooted her
My life was shaped as a child into knowing my lineage

As an African man your clan name is where your roots are, you're blood bound
My clan name is Gambu, who is a child of Memela, Memela who is Nontuli's child
I can't marry into the surname of the Memelas nor of the Nontulis

Mama with a voice so rooted and so invested in grooming an African man 
I knew my lineage and my place from a young age, my mouth was shaped into words, respect for women is in my family tree, she knows that

Love thy neighbor as your own family is not only from the Bible is j...

Seductive rain drops

Seductive rain drops
*
A conducive scenario
Sweet juices of dripping rain
Showing no signs of slowing down
Yet not showing any aggression either

The love letter is in black and white
We are meant to be but silence is bliss
Both listening to rain drops telling
us that we really belong together

Labradoodle pup is tired of the madness
We've become dumb strangers in love inside wishing we could both dance naked outside in the drizzle like kids we used to be but silence is bliss

A smile, a laugh and a dance broke
the silence, a touch reached the sensitive spot, holly melodies are heard as the rain drops applauds the kiss

Holly mother of God, a seductive rain,
a smile, a laugh and a dance, lovers are in a merry go round of kisses as intimate as the rain drops on the window pane
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© Lungi Shigo Msusa

What would you do...?

What would you do...?

I heard her singing
I was lost in her music
Absorbed by the love melody
Her name Merriam Makheba 
sounded like a fragrance of love

I got lost in the crowd, 
It was me and her in a love song
The song got intangled with my heart
Sending ripples of muscles under my shirt
Out of words, captured, in a trance I listened

What would you do if tell you I love you?
What would you do if I kiss your lips?
Would you believe I'm insensitive or
would you hold me and laid me down?
What would you do... the song goes on not thinking what it was doing to my heart

Would you make our love matter always?
What would you do if call you sometime?
Would you call me, call me all the time?
I'd like to call you one time
The song goes on, not minding my lonely heart

Is this for the show,
Why the song isn...

My English is good

Your English is good!
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Why would you spoil the talks;
Why would you say that?
Am I too African to speak English;
English is not an African language
I'm African, yes that's me, I understand
Are you claiming your English;

Why do you look surprised; 
We are talking, you looking at my mouth
Does my white teeth fascinate you;
I'm writing you read in total awe 
What are you saying about my Africanism;

I'm from South Africa I'm very sensitive
Apartheid made me jumpy and conscious
My black consciousness is Steve Biko
My ubuntu is Mr Nelson Mandela himself
Mind your language

Can you speak mine good;
Maybe I'll be surprised too if you do
Who knows, maybe you should then pronounce my name correctly, I do yours
Your English is good! What did you expect;
A character in your sitcom 
"M...

My intro

Name : Lungi Christian Msusa but writing as Lungi Shigo Msusa.

Born 25 November 1967 in Eastern Cape Province, South Africa, in a town called East London. Moved to Mdantsana township just outside East London when he was still very young to start his first primary school at Sophakama Primary school there. With his parents he left Mdantsana to stay in Butterworth (Gcuwa), a small town 100 kilometers away.

In Butterworth he went on to do his tertiary education in Eastern Cape Technikon doing Civil engineering. Couldn't finish his diploma in Civil engineering because of financial barriers but went on to work for an engineering firm as a student technician in Mthatha 200 kilometers away from East London but still in the Eastern Cape Province. 

He never stopped working after that and by then he was nicknamed Shigo for his love of football (soccer). Nickmaned after his favorite soccer player that name stuck with him because of his skills in so...

My Africa

My Africa

I've seen you seating in your throne
With empty hands but your throne
is made of gold, silver and bronze
One second smile, your only gift to give

Like most wealthy soils your curse is your people's over inflated egos, they don't give they take like  parasitic wild mushrooms
Africa you bleeding, your gold is dead in their attics full of blood diamonds

Goodwill ambassadors, doctors without borders, world health organizations, UNICEF are pumping blood banks back into your veins, they stealing it from your veins, are they really Africans;
  
Blood in blood out, your colour is red
Donors have their feet on their backs 
Your alleyways deases ridden, say thanks to WHO running is not on their dictionary

Born and bred I fell in love, I'm married
My blood is your blood, I'm from the soil
The son of the soil, I weep in your arid lap

Ghost of love

Ghost of love

I was born with the taste of the sea,
lived near the ocean of love all my life
Lost my soul dancing with the ocean
On the shoreline is where my love life is
I'm watching and waiting for him to be free of heartache and love sores
I need him to fall in love again then I'll rest in peace, I'll leave the land of the living
I'm as free as a bird like the way I loved 
I need him to be free to love again 
I'll be with our love star waiting for him 
I know he'll gaze up like we normally did
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© Lungi Shigo Msusa